I want to leave.

[ SPIRIT ] - ... [ MUSIC ] - ...

You'd think my last post of 2007 would be something good. But it really isn't.

I've had possibly one of the worst nights ever. And juuuust when I thought it couldn't get any worse it does!

Rules.

I actually cannot wait to leave dubai. I hate this place, SO MUCH. I use to say I would miss the people, but by then the people I actually care for will be gone, so the only thing left here will be my family. Otherwise I'd never want to come back here to see anyone again.

People are so two faced and they take things for granted waay easily.

I had my first panic attack in 3 years this morning, and I haven't slept all bloody night, so I'm going to be up till like tomorrow with no sleep. And even though I had like a massive panic attack, I still haven't managed to cry. THere is seriously something wrong with me.

I just can't wait for this year to be done, there is so much I want to leave behind, and so much I want to start fresh with. And if this year is done, it means it's a little bit closer to next year, and that means I will be leaving soon.

And I can't wait.

Today is going to be rubbish. I'm considering cancelling my thing tonight, there's enough parties for everyone to go to. I just feel soo crap I can't even explain it to you. I wish I could talk to someone.

I wish I could write what I want to write on here without upsetting anyone.

I can feel tonight is going to upset more than just me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I don't think I will drink tonight. I'll watch everyone else go home wasted, and I'll just hope they had a good time.

Maybe if I start the year bad, I can only hope for better?